In a couple of days I’ll be starting my new project. I haven’t said very much about it yet so I figured I should write a post explaining what’s going on. It started a few weeks ago when I had a sudden realisation. I had just completed another challenge on my bucket list. I knew that I should be pleased but I wasn’t, I felt weirdly gloomy and I couldn’t shift the feeling. I started asking myself questions. I have achieved so much this year, what more did I want? The answer popped straight into my mind. I want to be happy.
I always assumed that if I got a grip on my anxiety I would be happy. I am in a much better place now compared to a year ago. I am pleased with that but at the same time I find myself losing my motivation. Over the last few weeks I have realised a few important things:
- Reducing my anxiety does help to make me happier but its one piece in a puzzle. Focusing solely on my anxiety won’t greatly improve my happiness.
- When I feel happy I find it easier to tackle my anxiety. I remember reading once that a person’s happiness and resilience are closely linked. That makes sense to me, when I am happy I am more motivated, positive and able to cope with my fears.
- It feels good to tackle my anxiety and tick items off my bucket list but it can also be exhausting.
- My anxiety effects my happiness and vice versa.
- If I want to be able to keep facing my fears I have to focus on my happiness too as one can effect the other.
A few months ago I wrote this post where I made a list of personal commandments. It was an idea that I took from the book The Happiness Project by Gretchin Rubin. At the time I said I was intrigued by the idea of a Happiness Project but that I needed to focus on my mental health, not my happiness. I realise now that the two are interlinked so on my 24th birthday (Saturday) I will be starting a Happiness Project. I’m determined to make my 24th year a really good one!
I’ll be explaining more about how it works in the next few days. Have you ever started a Happiness Project? If so I’d love to hear from you!